Personal Change

I always scoffed when someone complains “This month has been bad for me” or “This year is so shitty!” No, I don’t believe time is correlated to your happiness or sadness, until it happened to me.

In my twenty-seven years, I never experienced a huge change that left me weak and vulnerable. Truth is, I hate feeling scared and not in control (I am a control freak). I think it’s wise to say we have no control of our external change, but what about internal change? Yes I have had an unexpected personal change.

It all begins a month ago when my sleeping got disturbed. I never experienced sleeping trouble and the experience, even though it sounds silly to many people, changed me. I was confronted to the other side of me. The one who worries, who got panic attack and who is anxious about every single damn thing. Since I am a control freak I got obsessed about sleep. I even went to a sleeping doctor and got helped. I was so absorbed in my fear that I lashed out at everyone around me and it continued for few weeks until I managed to give up on trying (and yes give up trying to sleep made me asleep). Continue reading


I Went to a Wedding Alone and I survived!


My friend’s wedding day has finally come! She told me about the “big day” since January this year and about the date a few months ago. The invitation state reception at 6 pm, but since I worried about this city’s traffic, I decided to leave at 3 pm. Good choice? Not really, considering I have to wait for two hours by myself at the venue without knowing ANYONE else beside the bride. Yes, I always find myself in an awkward situation.

The reception was held at an event space called Alexandra’s House. It’s basically a house with a huge garden in the middle and pool in the back. I walked to the front door with dozens of people busy with the wedding’s preparation. I saw the flower guy, the food guy, and one woman inside the hall. I went in and she approached me with a confused look, thinking maybe I am lost. I told her I am here for the wedding and she just looked at me without words coming out from her mouth. I looked around and found someone who recognizes me because we have once met. She ushered me inside where long sofas are laid out and gave me a bottle of mineral water. She asked whether I wanted to meet the bride although is busy with make up. What am I suppose to say? I just smile and said don’t worry I’ll wait here. Continue reading

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe Book Review

I need to stop reading The Shining because… it’s a depressing book, so I decided to read Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. Let’s find out what I think about it with my Q & A style!

Why did you decide to read this book?

The title is catchy and interesting. The synopsis on GR sounds like your typical coming of age book, but since I needed something relaxing, I thought why not. Continue reading

What to Blog About? Tips and Tricks!

We all started a blog for something, right? Maybe you created yours as a fun space to write anything you want. Maybe some of you are like me, who created a blog with notion that this could be your profession.

These past few weeks have been hard for me because I can’t decide what do I want to blog about. I started this blog hoping to share my “lifestyle” experience as an ex magazine writer and become a blogger in that section. But as time goes by, I realized how hard it is to create a lifestyle blog. My concern is not the content itself, I got some ideas (will share with you guys in a minute), but because those “ideas” are so business-y like, I find it hard to push myself to write them down. Continue reading

I Watched Wes Craven’s Interviews

With my coffee mug on one hand and my phone on the other, I begin my morning “scroll”, as I like to call it, with the social medias. I clicked the Instagram icon and after the fourth posts, the news hit me. Sarah Michelle Gellar posted a picture of her magazine cover with the other ‘Scream 2’ actresses. I read the descriptions and my heart sank: Wes Craven died at the age of 76. Continue reading

Musing: Grace Helbig & Blogging

I have had a runny nose since I woke up and realised my allergy kicked in. I tried to write but I can’t concentrate because I keep on snorting and sneezing – it’s damn tiring. I slept for a while then I woke up to the sound of mosquito buzzing near my ear. What the heck is this! I take off my sleeping mask and sit on my chair. Put the laptop on my lap and clicked the YouTube icon. Continue reading

Percy Jackson and the Titan’s Curse Book Review

Originally I wanted to write about the Greek Mythology I read in here. However, that stuff need research and as much as I love research and history I have to be honest to myself and let it go. I am not a historian and I rather do a book review instead.

I finished the book around a month or two ago (I am now reading The Shining!) and enjoyed it better than the previous book. I think this one would definitely make a better movie as well. Now for the review I would like to do something experimental and use Q & A template for this book review. Continue reading